September 1973 - Michael Teachings Transcripts

Sept 28, 1974

Am I in the Rejection part of Growth right now? I feel like no one likes me, or wants to be with me, etc. I am almost paranoid about it.

E.'S FEARS THAT NO ONE OUT THERE LIKES YOU MIRRORS THE CYCLIC LOSS OF SELF-ESTEEM THAT ACCOMPANIES YOUR VIOLENT MOOD SWINGS. YES, THIS IN PART DUE TO THE MODE, AND IN PART DUE TO THE CENTER, IN WHICH YOU ARE TRAPPED. SOULS IN GROWTH DO EXPERIENCE THE FEAR OF REJECTION WHERE SOULS IN SOME OF THE OTHER GOALS DO NOT, BUT SOULS IN GROWTH DO NOT OFTEN EXPERIENCE THE NEED TO REJECT — ONLY THE FEAR, AND THIS FEAR IS CERTAINLY CYCLIC. THIS IS ONE AREA IN YOU THAT COULD BE LOOKED AT. THE HIGH POINT IN THE CYCLE IS THE ONE TO HOLD UP AS A GROWTH AIM. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, YOU WILL NOT BE HYPER-MANIC, JUST JOYFUL, IF YOU ARE ABLE TO ATTAIN THIS AND REMAIN THERE. THOSE SOULS WITH BLAND OVERLEAVES CAN STAND TO LOOK AT THEIR EXPERIENCES OF JOY, AND PERHAPS TUNE IN MORE THAN THEY ARE NOW DOING. MOVING CENTERED SOULS OFTEN TURN OFF OR TUNE OUT THESE EXPERIENCES THAT ARE POTENTIALLY EMOTIONALLY LOADED.

I just started dancing again, and all of a sudden my depression lifted, and everything looks OK to me — my life, my marriage, etc. I feel I’m using Moving Center to get high. If I want to be balanced, should I not give in to the urge to use Moving Center and dance?

NO. THIS IS A FALSE INTERPRETATION. IN ESSENCE THERE IS A MOVEMENT. THE WORK IN THIS FOR YOU, E., WOULD BE TO GET IN TOUCH WITH THE MOVING PART OF EMOTIONAL CENTER DURING THE DANCE, WHICH IS ESSENTIALLY WHAT YOU ARE DOING. AS LONG AS YOU DO NOT COMPETE WITH YOURSELF, YOU WILL SUCCEED AT THIS.

How can I get in touch with Intellectual Center?

THIS WILL BE THE MOST DIFFICULT FOR YOU, AND FOR ALL OTHERS IN THE CENTERING YOU ARE IN, AS IT INVOLVES SINGLE-MINDED CONCENTRATION, AND APPLICATION OF NON-JUDGMENTAL LOGIC. READING VERY STUDIOUS WORKS HAS DONE IT FOR OTHER STUDENTS. CONTINUOUS STUDY WILL ALSO DO IT. THE DETERMINING FACTOR IS THE BOREDOM FACTOR. AS SOON AS BOREDOM CREEPS IN, THE EMOTIONAL CENTER HAS CREPT IN TOO. BOREDOM IS SIMPLY NOT INTELLECTUALLY POSSIBLE. IT IS A LOWER EMOTIONAL FUNCTION. MOST OF THE TIME, IN FACT, IT IS A FUNCTION OF THE EMOTIONAL PART OF MOVING CENTER.

In doing SRG’s, I find I do not have an understanding of Modes. May we have some information on Modes?

SOULS IN THE REPRESSION MODE ARE UNABLE TO EXPERIENCE EITHER JOY OR SADNESS TO ANY NOTICEABLE EXTENT. THERE IS AN AIR OF POIGNANCY OR WISTFULNESS ABOUT THEM THAT IS UNMISTAKABLE. THEY SAY TO YOU, IN EFFECT, “MAKE MY LIFE MORE”.

PERSEVERATORS ARE UNABLE TO GIVE UP OLD, WORN OUT HABITS, EVEN THOUGH THEY RECOGNIZE THEIR FUTILITY. THEY SAY, “BUT I CAN’T DO IT BECAUSE I NEVER DID IT BEFORE, AND I’M TOO OLD TO CHANGE”. THEY ARE TOO OLD TO CHANGE THE DAY THEY ARE BORN.

SOULS IN CAUTION APPROACH ALL NEW THINGS WITH TIMIDITY. THEY ARE THE ENGLISHMAN WHO CARRIES AN UMBRELLA EVEN THOUGH THE SKIES ARE CLOUDLESS, BECAUSE IT MIGHT RAIN. THEY ARE USUALLY WELL PREPARED FOR ALL CONTINGENCIES, AND HAVE AN ALTERNATIVE PLAN FOR EVERYTHING. THEY REQUIRE MUCH DELIBERATION. THEY ARE SAYING, “SLOW DOWN, YOU ARE MOVING TOO FAST FOR ME”.

SOULS IN OBSERVATION ARE THE ONLY SOULS WE KNOW OF WHO CAN SPEAK OF THEIR OWN LIVES IN THE THIRD PERSON. THEY ARE DISTINGUISHED BY A SLIGHTLY REMOTE BUT POLITE DETACHMENT, AND A SENSE OF NONINVOLVEMENT, OFFERING LOGICAL BUT NOT CONSOLING ADVICE. THEY ARE VERY GOOD IN CRISIS SITUATIONS, EVEN IF THE CRISIS IS THEIR OWN, BECAUSE THEY CAN USUALLY STAND OUTSIDE OF IT AND OBSERVE.

Is my Mode Observation?

DON’T YOU THINK SO?

THOSE SOULS IN AGGRESSION OFTEN APPEAR TO BE PLOWING UPHILL AGAINST THE WIND. THEY WILL PURSUE THEIR OWN AMBITIONS WITH A DOGGED DETERMINATION THAT PUTS ALL OTHER SOULS TO SHAME. THE ONLY PROBLEM IS THE POOR SOULS WHO STAND IN THEIR WAY — THEY OFTEN GET PLOWED UNDER, ESPECIALLY IN THE EARLY CYCLES. INTERPERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS ARE STORMY FOR SOULS IN THIS MODE.

SOULS IN THE PASSION MODE APPROACH LIFE WITH MORE ENTHUSIASM THAN ANY OTHER MODE, WHICH IS WHY THEY OFTEN APPEAR TO BE SUFFERING MORE THAN ANY OTHER SOULS. IN LIFE THEIR EXPECTATIONS OF OTHERS ARE TREMENDOUS, AND CONSEQUENTLY MORE OFTEN DASHED THAN IN OTHER MODES. THEIR INNATE CAPACITY FOR WARMTH IS SOMETIMES SMOTHERING IN CLOSE INTERPERSONAL RELATIONSHIPS, ESPECIALLY IN THE YOUNGER CYCLES. STUDENTS CAN CHANGE THIS. SOULS IN PASSION EXPECT OTHERS TO GIVE THEIR “ALL”, AND EXPECT THAT ALL TO EQUAL THEIR OWN. THE DISAPPOINTMENT THEREIN IS NOT TOO SURPRISING.

THE SOUL IN POWER HAS AN OUTWARD APPEARANCE OF STRENGTH, AND INSPIRES CONFIDENCE IN OTHERS BECAUSE OF THIS. THE SOUL IN POWER, IN ORDER TO BE IN ESSENCE, MUST BE AT OR NEAR THE TOP IN ALL SITUATIONS, EVEN IF THIS MEANS CREATING A BRAND NEW SITUATION. THESE SOULS ARE THE INNOVATORS, THE INSPIRATIONAL PEOPLE. SOULS IN POWER ARE VERY APPARENT — THEY STAND OUT IN A CROWD.

It feels to me that I’m not in the Power Mode, but in Passion.

YOU ARE NOT IN THE POWER MODE. IF THIS WAS AN ERROR IN TRANSMISSION, IT IS UNFORTUNATE, AND IT MUST HAVE FELT WRONG TO YOU. SOULS IN POWER OFFER A ROCKLIKE SHOULDER FOR THE WORLD TO CRY ON.

_____ had a question about a temporal-type goal for his life.

ACTUALLY, _____, YOU HAVE PROVIDED YOURSELF WITH A LOT OF NECESSARY SKILLS TO BRING YOUR ESSENCE TO BEAR ON THE PHYSICAL PLANE. YOUR ROLE DEMANDS THAT YOU SUPERVISE THE PHYSICAL NEEDS OF MANY, AND THUS SATISFY IT FULLY. YOU CAN DO THIS EASILY WITH THE AMMUNITION YOU NOW HAVE. AS FOR A TEMPORAL GOAL, WE WILL ONLY REPEAT AN EARLIER QUESTION: DO YOU WISH FOR A FULLER LIFE ON THE PHYSICAL PLANE, OR DO YOU DESIRE SPIRITUAL GROWTH? IF IT IS THE FORMER, THEN THERE ARE MANY GROUPS GEARED FOR THIS. IF THE LATTER, THEN THIS TEACHING IS FOR YOU, AND THERE ARE NO TEMPORAL GOALS. WE COULD, OF COURSE, SUGGEST SOME SATISFYING ACTIVITIES, BUT YOU CAN AND WILL INTUIT THESE ON YOUR OWN. WE WILL NOT SUBSTITUTE OUR TRUE PURPOSE IN THIS WAY, AS IT IS POSSIBLE TO OBTAIN THIS ON THE PHYSICAL PLANE. THIS IS NOT TO IN ANY WAY DOWNGRADE THIS PURSUIT. IT IS JUST TO SAY THAT WE DO NOT FEEL THAT IT IS VALUABLE IN THE PATH TOWARD SPIRITUAL GROWTH. THE STEPS YOU HAVE ALREADY TAKEN HAVE HELPED YOU IMMEASURABLY, BUT YOU MUST ALLOW FOR THE QUIET SPACE TO LOOK AT THEM OBJECTIVELY.

Growth doesn’t occur in a vacuum. One must immerse himself in something, or relate with someone, in order to grow. Right?

SPIRITUAL GROWTH IS AN EXTREMELY ACTIVE PROCESS, BUT MANY TIMES IT ISOLATES YOU FROM THE MAINSTREAM — THIS IS WHAT WE ARE SAYING. SPIRITUAL ENLIGHTENMENT, WHICH IS INDEED A BYPRODUCT, IS AN ECSTATIC EXPERIENCE TO WHICH NOTHING CAN POSSIBLY COMPARE.

(More followed, and was transcribed separately.)

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