GROWTH IS A ROCKY GOAL, AND CAUSES THE SOUL TO GO THROUGH SOME ELABORATE AND COMPLICATED MACHINATIONS WHICH MASK ALL OF THE OTHER GOALS. MANY TIMES THE SOUL IN GROWTH IS FORCED TO PLAY OUT ALL OF THE AGONIES OF THE OTHER GOALS IN ORDER TO GROW, SUCH AS THE REJECTION-DOMINANCE SEEN OFTEN IN MANY MEMBERS OF THIS GROUP WHO ARE IN GROWTH. DEPRESSION AND ELATION USUALLY MANIFESTS OFTEN IN THIS GOAL. THERE IS SOMETIMES THE NEED TO SUBMIT, I.E., TO PUT ONESELF IN THE HANDS OF THE GURU. THERE ARE ALSO MANY TIMES THE NEED TO FEEL ACCEPTED, TO HAVE THE GOAL VERIFIED BY SOCIETY, TO CHECK OUT WITH LIFE THE SANITY OF THE SOUL’S PURPOSE. THIS OFTEN MAKES THE SOUL WHO IS STILL IN FALSE PERSONALITY GO THROUGH A SET OF WELL DEFINED PATTERNS. YOU CAN NOW BEGIN TO PHOTOGRAPH THESE PATTERNS IN ONE ANOTHER.
Do you go faster in a Goal of Growth? When is the Goal of Growth chosen? Is it because of karmic reasons that it is chosen?
IT CAN, OF COURSE, BUT IS USUALLY NOT DESIRABLE. THE GOAL OF GROWTH IS USUALLY CHOSEN TO COMPLETE A MONAD.
In the Goal of Growth, does one “review” all the other goals? It seems I’m in and out of all of them.
THE GOAL OF GROWTH CAUSES THE SOUL TO SEARCH, SOMETIMES RESTLESSLY, FOR THE ANSWERS TO QUESTIONS OF A PHILOSOPHICAL AND RELIGIOUS NATURE ALMOST FROM THE TIME THE FIRST BREATH IS DRAWN. IN THE EARLY CYCLES, THIS SOMETIMES CAUSES GRIEF AND GUILT, AS THERE IS OFTEN A SPLIT WITH FAMILY MEMBERS OVER UNTENABLE VIEWS HELD BY THEM. THE “REVIEW” [of the other Goals] IS A PHENOMENON THAT WE BELIEVE TO BE UNIVERSAL IN THE OLDER CYCLES. WE SEE THIS IN ALL OF YOU, BUT FAR MORE PRONOUNCED IN THOSE IN GROWTH. THIS ENDLESS SEARCHING OFTEN PRODUCES BOTH ACCEPTANCE AND SUBMISSION; THEN WHEN THE FLASH COMES, THE STUDENT IN GROWTH OFTEN BECOMES TEMPORARILY DOMINANT IN ORDER TO SPREAD THE WORD HE HAS RECEIVED. THIS IS ENTIRELY NATURAL.
Am I in the Rejection part of Growth right now? I feel like no one likes me, or wants to be with me, etc. I am almost paranoid about it.
YOUR FEARS THAT NO ONE OUT THERE LIKES YOU MIRRORS THE CYCLIC LOSS OF SELF-ESTEEM THAT ACCOMPANIES YOUR VIOLENT MOOD SWINGS. YES, THIS IN PART DUE TO THE MODE, AND IN PART DUE TO THE CENTER, IN WHICH YOU ARE TRAPPED. SOULS IN GROWTH DO EXPERIENCE THE FEAR OF REJECTION WHERE SOULS IN SOME OF THE OTHER GOALS DO NOT, BUT SOULS IN GROWTH DO NOT OFTEN EXPERIENCE THE NEED TO REJECT — ONLY THE FEAR, AND THIS FEAR IS CERTAINLY CYCLIC. THIS IS ONE AREA IN YOU THAT COULD BE LOOKED AT. THE HIGH POINT IN THE CYCLE IS THE ONE TO HOLD UP AS A GROWTH AIM. BELIEVE IT OR NOT, YOU WILL NOT BE HYPER-MANIC, JUST JOYFUL, IF YOU ARE ABLE TO ATTAIN THIS AND REMAIN THERE. THOSE SOULS WITH BLAND OVERLEAVES CAN STAND TO LOOK AT THEIR EXPERIENCES OF JOY, AND PERHAPS TUNE IN MORE THAN THEY ARE NOW DOING. MOVING CENTERED SOULS OFTEN TURN OFF OR TUNE OUT THESE EXPERIENCES THAT ARE POTENTIALLY EMOTIONALLY LOADED.
SOURCE: Michael Teachings Transcripts